Monday, November 23, 2020

Desperately Seeking Joy: Thankfulness Edition Day 23


Day 23: Socks and Slippers

The one day that I didn't swear them, I got a nasty sliver in my foot and it's still hurting today. I always wear socks or slippers in the house, because it gets chilly during this time of year. So I am really thankful I have things to choose from in order to keep my feet warm and my body healthy.

Sunday, November 22, 2020

Desperately Seeking Joy: Thankfulness Edition Day 22


Day 22: Family

I'm going to clump everyone together, because I don't want anyone to feel left out. But most importantly is my mom. I love her so much and this time together is challenging, but I am thankful for getting to spend the time with her. 

Saturday, November 21, 2020

Desperately Seeking Joy: Wellness Update #2


As I mentioned previously (somewhere before this), we spent the bulk of the week at my mom's. So all my fitness expectations kind of disappear. And then once I'm home, it's trying to figure out how to be home again. 

After one day of dealing with being home, I was able to get on the treadmill and I really rocked it out! I got up to 2.8 and a I did 1.5 miles all at one time! But now today I'm feeling sore and just really weak. Today is not a good day for me. 

Either way, I think the medication I'm on is negatively affecting my ability to lose weight. 

Desperately Seeking Joy: Thankfulness Edition Day 21


Day 21: Critical Role

I'm not going to go into all the nitty gritty about why I am thankful for Critical Role, but I'll focus just briefly on how I am in-this-moment thankful for Critical Role. 

Going through everything I am going through right now, Critical Role has offered a positive distraction that helps to get me through the day. I can listen to the show when I'm driving down to Milwaukee. I can put it on my TV on YouTube when I need something to distract me. I can watch it on my phone while I'm on the treadmill. 

My family connects over it. It's my husband's favorite show. It's a show my daughter is greatly interested in, because she is so interested in D&D right now.  It also inspires our own  D&D sessions.

They've had some super sweet merch that I've been able to get to help cheer me up and also for Christmas. 

So I've always been a fan, but CR has been a welcome distraction during this difficult time for me. 

Friday, November 20, 2020

Desperately Seeking Joy: Thankfulness Edition Day 20


Day 20: Pick-Up Groceries

I am so thankful that I can grocery shop online and pick up my groceries with contactless pickup. It saves me money and it helps me to stay safe and to keep my family safe. Plus now I know I have everything for Thanksgiving without wandering around the store, stressed out, and being around people.

Thursday, November 19, 2020

Desperately Seeking Joy #14


Today is definitely a day that I am seeking joy desperately! I feel overwhelmed and a whole onslaught of negative emotions. I keep trying to do little things to push them away, but the onslaught is causing these almost-panic attack like experiences.  The horrible thought that keeps going through my head is "other people can deal with these little things, why can't you?" And I know why I can't, but then all I feel is "it's not fair" that I have this disability. Which then makes me feel guilty for not being happy with what I have been given in life and then I feel like a horrible person and then it starts all over again. 

Today is supposed to be a regrouping day. We arrived back home from my mom's yesterday and the I realized Thanksgiving is next Thursday. So I panicked. There was no relaxing yesterday, only crying. Then today I got Thanksgiving sorted, but now it's so many other things that are on my plate and I feel consumed and crushed.


Some positive things happened during the day that made me have these little happy moments. 

  • Organized my secret santa's gifts.
  • (Not pleased with the shipping of several things on Etsy, but also happy with some.)
  • My husband got me a fish sandwich! It was much craved and appreciated.
  • My daughter got excited to learn that Liam O'Brien used to voice the Wonderful Pistachio commercials.
  • Watched some of the final episodes of Supernatural with hubby.
  • The person on Board Game Geek who runs the Advent Calendar Geek List posted the 2020 list and I got to work on that post.
  • Worked on the prep for my Game-a-Day Calendar for my blog.
It was a day littered with tears and I tried to latch onto the small happy moments, but it's hard right now. I tried and am making an effort and that's what's important.

Desperately Seeking Joy: Thankfulness Edition Day 19


Day 19: A Bath or Shower

Geepers creepers, we are some stinky creatures. I am so thankful that I can bathe whenever I am feeling the need or whenever someone around me feels I should. I am also thankful for it, because I have a tween girl who is going to need to start using it more. Who woulda thunk sitting at home would produce so much sweat!

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

Desperately Seeking Joy: Thankfulness Edition Day 18


Day 18: Cheetos

Cheetos are my main comfort food. Sometimes it's just really nice to open a bag of cheetos and have a few. So much comfort!

Tuesday, November 17, 2020

Desperately Seeking Joy: Thankfulness Edition Day 17


Day 17: Take Out

When we're with my mom, having the option to get take out is great. We don't make dishes to cause more messes and it's ready when we need it. And after these long days at the hospital, it is great to have my husband pop out and grab us some delicious food.

Monday, November 16, 2020